Yea Friday

It has been a very long and strang week for me. I am very happy to see the week end. Nick was in one of his rare decluttering moods and got a lot of great work done. I have gotten nothing but some minor laundry done. I have seen so many doctors and talked to so many doctors I should have my own degree. We have the yes your symptons are real to you and I can't help you go to the mental health people group of doctors. Then there is the yes you have been through a lot of stress and have had a lot of trama in your past that explains some symptoms but not all and there still could me a medical physical condition being missed. We are just going forward for now until we can figure out what other tests could be done to shed light on the subject. These strange symptoms can all be my bodys way of finaly griving over deaths that I just dismissed in my past. It could be that I have finally broken down under the presure of the stupidity of our existing health care finascal payment system. The series of no we wont help financial help your son. The uncertiy of the future and the presure of wanting to still be a supper hero mom. But I am just a mom who has a lot of love for her family and wants the best for them.

Jennifer

Tuesday Night

Gary and Jennifer are in bed now (and hopefully asleep). Its been a fairly normal day here.

Jennifer had a dental appointment to get an inlay put in. The appointment was supposed to be on Thursday but the temporary cracked.

Gary had a good day at school. Jennifer forgot so set the alarm so he Gary did get a late start.

He played Wii when he got home (Mario Winter Olympics). But he also ate a pretty good dinner for me (stopping the game without a fuss). He also stopped the game to go over his spelling words without protesting. I love days when he is a good listener.

TTFN.

Monday Night

Just finished working with Gary on his spelling homework. He did a pretty good job once I got him to focus. He is eating his snack now and watching Yo Gabba Gabba. And he is hopefully getting tired.

Jennifer is playing on Facebook and resting. She lost an inlay tonight so she will be going to the dentist tomorrow, she actually already had an appointment on Thursday. The trick is figuring out how she is going to get there since she is not supposed to drive right now.

I'm okay, just busy at work.

TTFN (that's Ta Ta For Now)

Good News and long journey

I have come back from the Neurologist and yes he still believes that I have Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. Because of the new symptoms of falling he is given me a perscription for a walker so I wont hurt myself when I fall. So there is no physical answer for my physcial symtoms other than PTSD. So I guess all these years of fighting with Blue Cross Blue Shield has taken it's toll on me as well as Gary's physical mealtdowns. Now to keep going to my theapist and keep movin forward. Some day this will all be in my past and Iwill be a stronger mom and wife. For now I have to just pray for the healing from God.

I plan on moving forward with my art plans and start painting soon. I will continue to get rest and try to laugh as much as possible. Isn't Laughter the best medicine. Well going to get ready for Gary to come home soon. Have a great day everyone.

Love
Jennifer

Peaceful night at last

Tonght has been fairly uneventful thank God. I am ready for a good night sleep. Will see a neurologist tomorrow to see if he thinks there is something we are missing. I think he will stay with his decission he had last year of Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. So I better get some research out and read up on this PTSD. I don't know. I do know I have given everything up to God and praying for the strength to accept what is going on with me. Then I will have to lean hard on the love I have for my family to get through all of this. A mothers love is suppose to be very powerfull. Hope mine is powerfull enought to break through this difficult time and give Gary what he needs. I just love Gary and Nick sooooo much that I really want to be there and be a good mom and good wife. I want to be a good friend, good granddaughter. I am just tired and frustrated with this physical condition getting in the way of what I want to be. Keep everyone better posted.

Last few days recap. Dr. appointment, Cat Scan on Brain, Long shacking period 911 call, ER visit, EKG good, blood work good, Cat Scan good, Still weak muscles and Neurologist appointment tomorrow.

Is it Friday yet. Am I well yet? Is all of this crazy stuff done yet? I got to be a mom , a wife, a daughter, a friend, a daughter inlaw and a granddaughter. Also need to get paintings done. Can I go on with my life yet? Only time will tell and only God knows what is best for me now.

Love to all

Jennifer

Sunday Night

It's almost time for the KCCH to go off to dreamland. Jennifer and Gary are in bed. I'm watching a little TV before I go upstairs and join them.

Today was a quiet day. I worked half a day and then just spent a lazy Sunday afternoon watching a little TV (with a nap thrown in).

Gary played his Wii and also watched a little TV. It was a down time day.

Tomorrow Gary has a dentist appointment.

Stay warm.

Friday afternoon

Yesterday Gary had a great day at school. He had his first spelling test and only missed one out of seven words. Ohhhh mommy is sooooo proud. He is doing great in math and actually all his subjects. He continues to amuze his teachers and friends and has become a delight to work with. He still has his momments but in school he is doing well. We are very grateful.

I give credit to all the help and therapies he has been taking. I was upset at first because I thought his tennis place went out of business. But sooo happy they just closed one location and left another one open. The other location will actually be more convient for us as a family and I look forward to getting Gary back involved with Tennis lessons. I call it Tennis thearpy. He learns, realionship skills, social skills, builds on his gross/fine motor strengths, how to follow directions, listen to coach/teachers and tennis skills. I feel the lessons are very important for him. Actually equally important as HIPPO and OT. So will have to come up with a time to for him to get back into tennis.

I am doing fine. Working hard on over coming my PTSD and making progerss. It is just such a long road and hard work. But in the end I will be a much stronger person and better mother for Gary, and better wife for Nick. The two most important people in my life. next to my grandma of course.

Nick is doing great at work very busy and they have apporved him special paid overtime which he is doing.

I have some places that may display my artwork. So need to fix my loft into an art studio this weekend. My art work seems to be the answer to many prayers. It gives me peace, sanity and some money. So I need to get busy. Will keep everyone informed on how that goes. I have 3 places right now that are posibilities for displaying my work for sale and in March another Art Show. I have joined an Art movement group on Face Book which has led me to some new friends and given my art work world wide exposure. I don't know what my future holds with my art but everything right now is all positive.

It is another cold day and I am waiting for my adorable family to come home. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Love
Jennifer

wonder wensday

Hello Everyone,

Here is Tusedays update. Gary had a fantastic day a school and he really enjoyed riding Princess the horse he rides now at HIPPO. His speach is coming along really well and he is turning into a delight at school from what the Teachers have told me. We had a great time Tuseday.

He went off to school fine today but he had to come home from school today. They thought he was sick. Been watching him he did have a very low grade fever 99 but I think he will be fine for school tomorrow. They sent him home because we have given him too much Mirlax. But the rest of the day seems OK. I have let him have lots of rest. Will try to get him up to bed soon. Barb Vail his Special Needs teacher told me he has been keeping very one laughing and they don't know where he is coming up with his whitty remarks. I told a few lines he likes form Phiness and Ferb. So he has been quoting funny show lines and showing his mommys quick whit. Make mommy proud. He also has another loose tooth in front. When I had to pick him up from the bathroom , poor thing kept saying " I am a big boy mommy. I am a big boy. I was too late. I am a big boy." I told him of course he is a big boy and that he was just a little sick and he was OK.

So our Phinneass and Ferb quote for the week is " For Example...For Example... For Example..." while pushing the button on his invisible remote control and pointing it at things. Yep that is my Boy.

Jan. 21 at 9 am will be his new IEP meeting where we will talk about his new goals and next year .

Love You All
Jennifer

Tuesday Night

It's Tuesday night and I have a couple of minutes before dinner is ready to say hi. We are all doing well. Just trying to stay warm. It is supposed to snow tomorrow and be really cold.

Happy New Year

It is a quiet Sunday night here. The end of the holiday season. Harvey is helping me type this quick entry to wish everyone a healthy and prosperous New Year.